Figuring out my life

It's been a long time since I've blogged about anything. But I'm thinking I'm at a time in my life where it might do me good.

You see, 5 months ago, my husband of 34 years left the walks of this life. I know it's a temporary goodbye. However, there are things that this 56 year old widow is now dealing with for the first time.

1) I've never used a plunger (I bought one), but so far I've never had to use it.
2) I've never used a riding lawn mower. My husband had bought a Kubota zero-turn lawn tractor. I just paid off the balance last week. So I'm going to be learning to drive the thing.
3) I've never used a weed eater or a chain saw. Own both... so I guess I'll be learning how to use those too.
4) I've never smoked my own meat. I own a smoker, guess I'll be learning how to do that too.
5) I've never left the Christmas tree up past January 2nd, but it's still up (unplugged), but standing, fully decorated. Part of it is defiance... my husband always insisted it had to be taken down by January 1st (one year we were all sick at Christmas so it stayed up an extra day). No one here to insist I take it down, so I haven't yet.
6) I've never cooked in an instant pot pressure cooker. I own one. So I'll be learning to use it too.
7) I've never painted a room in my house. But I plan to paint my bedroom soon.

Many things to learn and do and see and know. My life is not as I had planned it or ever dreamed it would be. However, I plan to keep living, keep dreaming, keep laughing, keep smiling, and enjoy the time that has been given to me. And maybe along the way, I'll decide to blog more often.