I've realized a truth I've heard all my life. Life is short. As I get older that reality becomes more and more real to me.
I've always thought it would be nice to be "free" to do non-traditional things. So I decided today was a good day to do something I've always wanted to do but haven't.
So I ate dessert first. An ice cream sundae... not a sugar free, diabetic-friendly sundae. Not a weight watcher's portioned sundae... a real 2-scoop full fat, full sugar vanilla ice cream with Hershey's syrup, sundae! Oh have I missed those!
I followed that dessert with a lunch of veggie pasta with fat free cheese, venison spaghetti sauce, and a side of radishes (raw)... rather mundane in comparison. But for a few moments it was nice to remember what life was like before I was diabetic, before I was trying to lose weight, back in the days when I could eat anything I wanted and not gain weight.
Now I'm back to reality. Once in a while, however, we do need to just enjoy the simple things. Today was one of those days.
-Robin
Thursday, June 13, 2013
Wednesday, June 12, 2013
One of those days
You know, if we focus on the things and circumstances in our lives, life can be very discouraging. Too much work, not enough staff, budget crunches, sicknesses, accidents, cancer, high unemployment, high cost of living, and the list goes on and on.
This week started out really rough for me with a fall that left me with a badly bruised knee and shoulder. Emotionally I've been a train wreck all week. I think that's as much to do with chronic sleep deprivation as anything. Blame it on whatever physical issue you want the reality is my life isn't what I want for it to be right now, because spiritually it isn't what it should be right now. And who's to blame for that? No one but me.
I can't tell you how many times things have gotten really rough and I've prayed and focused on the Lord and life improved. Why can't I seem to remember that lesson? It is only by the Grace of God that I got out of bed this morning (or any morning). It's only by His mercy that have a home, a job, a family, salvation, and a church family.
So all I can do at this point is say Lord forgive me for my ignorance and willful disobedience in trying to do everything my own way. Help me to realize I don't walk this life alone. You are there, every step of the way. But like a perfect gentleman, You never force your will on me. I want the day to be different, the week to be different, my life to be different. I want more of you and less of me. Help me to remember that my relationship with you is the most important one and the one that I need to put the most effort into. If I fail to put effort into that relationship, Satan is quick to throw stumbling blocks in my path.
Thank you for your love, your grace, and your mercy. Help your stubborn child to rest in you and lean on you and trust you completely with every situation.
I love you, Lord. And I thank you for removing the burden from my shoulders that I had been trying to carry. I surrender it all to you.
-Robin
This week started out really rough for me with a fall that left me with a badly bruised knee and shoulder. Emotionally I've been a train wreck all week. I think that's as much to do with chronic sleep deprivation as anything. Blame it on whatever physical issue you want the reality is my life isn't what I want for it to be right now, because spiritually it isn't what it should be right now. And who's to blame for that? No one but me.
I can't tell you how many times things have gotten really rough and I've prayed and focused on the Lord and life improved. Why can't I seem to remember that lesson? It is only by the Grace of God that I got out of bed this morning (or any morning). It's only by His mercy that have a home, a job, a family, salvation, and a church family.
So all I can do at this point is say Lord forgive me for my ignorance and willful disobedience in trying to do everything my own way. Help me to realize I don't walk this life alone. You are there, every step of the way. But like a perfect gentleman, You never force your will on me. I want the day to be different, the week to be different, my life to be different. I want more of you and less of me. Help me to remember that my relationship with you is the most important one and the one that I need to put the most effort into. If I fail to put effort into that relationship, Satan is quick to throw stumbling blocks in my path.
Thank you for your love, your grace, and your mercy. Help your stubborn child to rest in you and lean on you and trust you completely with every situation.
I love you, Lord. And I thank you for removing the burden from my shoulders that I had been trying to carry. I surrender it all to you.
-Robin
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